Monday, April 14, 2014

5 Years From Now

HI ! sorry I haven't blogged a while. I'm always overwhelmed with tasks and assignments from my professor. Well,I guess you can't be a lazy person if you're studying in one of the best art school in the world,right ? I am currently at my sophomore year in Parsons The New School for Design. I haven't blogged for a while...so I guess I'll just tell you how it goes. You all know that I have this crazy sort of naïve dream of going to Parsons right ? so since then I've decided to use all of my time during high school to pursue that dream. And it's not only about my happiness,but I also want to show people that I do deserve what I want. Alhamdulillah...like JKT48 said, hard work never traits hehehe. It was probably the busiest 3 years of my life yet, I mean...with no support from my parents, I basically have to do everything on my own. And as if it can't get worse,I can't even draw. So that adds up my to-do list before going here. during that time,I haven't actually thought about what's next after I'm admitted. I guess for me the important thing is just being accepted and..I don't know,hopefully my parents will understand what I want to do with my life ?

Besides Parsons,I am also admitted at RISD. But I fell in love with Parsons a long time ago,so I choose it instead. during my first year,I learned a lot. Like,a lot. I don't even know how my brain can process so much information like that. But yeah..I did. I do have to make a huge adjustment. And as you know,being someone who is not that good at adapting,I have a hard time adjusting myself with the new social and academic state. But...I pass it,and I guess for me that's the hardest part. So..I've been enjoying my life so far ! New York is a fast-paced city. Everyone is always busy and productive. I mean...who wouldn't ? you're in a big city ! I guess I'll be damned if I ever spend more than 3 days of being lazy in New York. I just love it,everything here. The shops,the streets,the nightlife...even The New School itself. People said that you have to constantly make connections in New York (thank god emails !)just to make your life a little bit easier. I mean,who knows what someone you meet in this random restaurant can do for you ?

I learned a lot just by living in the city. I learned that there are actually nice people,even strangers who act nicely to you. People said that New York is mean,but I think aggressive is the right term. Sure,there are people who actually swears when I accidentally bumped in to them when I was walking down the streets,but there are also people who helped me picking up all of my drawings during windy days. I guess it's just a matter of perspective....

The New School University Center is great ! I actually met those people who gave me advice and reviewed my portfolio. Mr.Rocco,kak Anna and kak Sheena and all. We don't always hang out together since they're all currently in their senior years (which is super busy,believe me) but we always meet up somewhere every now and then. I must admit that I'm not the popular guy in the university,but I made some friends. Parsons chained most of their students during weekends,let alone weeknights. So I don't have that much time to go out partying and stuff. But living here for almost two year I have developed this skill of a better time management. And I can *cough* professionally *cough* choose which assignments to skip and to do (hehehe).

I do feel a little bit lonely sometimes,but I keep reminding myself of how lucky I am to even be here. I can't imagine the day when I have to leave New York,but every hello ends with a good bye,right ?

I can't wait to tell more about my adventure in the concrete jungle !

Kelvin here,signing off.


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it was a great imagination,wasn't it ?

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Ride This Ride

HELLO WORLD !  I can't believe it has been (over) a month since my last post. This clearly proves not only that I'm a failure on being consistent -_- oh well. There are sooo much stuff going on in the past months. I've been having this little feeling like "oh oh ! I should blog about this" but I haven't got anytime to actually do it. Okay,this might sound a little bit exaggerating but it is what it is. I thought that I'm started to get used to the busy life of high school student (especially SHS 1) but no,I still have so much to improve,especially on time management. Even when I'm writing this post,I actually have a biology book to read and an art project to continue (I just looovveeee being busy.)

So...going a few post back,I still have this crazy,naïve dream of going to Parsons. I actually have started to contact everyone whom I think can help me throughout the process of getting the admission. From alumni to the staff to the faculty to the current student....Now,you might think that it's a little too early,but I haven't got any formal art education that directly relates to communication design,or even designing itself. (And yes,I'm considering their communication design major and put photography down to the second option.) Plus,you can never be too safe,right ? I also started to learn how to actually draw and paint...I'm still wayyyyyy below average but at least I'm making progress :D finger-crossed....

This past month I am a little bit happier than I used to. I guess I'm starting to actually take lessons from what I've experienced. Trying to be less-sensitive and not to overthink everything. It's not that you're going to suddenly be happy once you stop the overthinking habit,it's just.......I don't know,I kinda developed my own way of accepting things that I can't change. I hope this means that I've 'upgraded' myself to be a better person. I do have a little fear that somehow,I'm turning into this insensitive and kinda ignorant person....

I still have bad grades,I still have social problems,I still have big dreams that I have to work hard for,but I know God never sleeps :)


here's to the big dreamer ! :


Saturday, February 8, 2014

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Dreams Don't Turn To Dust

Wow.
Just wow.
Have you ever feel that all the dreams,all the good imagination you build for your whole life,and plans the rest of your life to pursue is crushed into the tiniest thing. Like...the atom of the atom tiny. Well if you don't,I've felt it just now.

I am in year 10 of senior high school now,and I guess it's the perfect time to plan for my college. Because in Indonesia,we have to go to college.otherwise we would be a total loser (which is a very not cool stereotype.) and I've been thinking and wondering and wondering about what I want to do with my life. Oh sure,who doesn't want to be a super great doctor who got PhD next to his name. Who doesn't want to be a world class architect who build international conference building,who doesn't want to be a great pop star,singing every night from one country to one country. But frankly,and sadly,I can't. I'm not good at any of my school subject,not that I'm failing,no,it's just that I don't think I could make it.

So then there's come the thinking process,what I want to do...what I want to do...what I want to do...the question keep echoing inside my head. Then I realised that I won't get any answer just by thinking and thinking. I need to observe myself. At what time do I feel like it's the happiest time of the day ? what did I do that time ?

Then I realised,I want to be a photographer,I know I always talked about how fashion fascinates me,but that's just it. It's just fascinates me,it's not something I want to do for my life.well,at least for now. But then there come these thought from people around me,it was something like "really ? a photographer ? what would you get as a photohgrapher ?" or "a photographer ? hahah,what would you feed your family with ?"And I thought that...well,maybe they're right. I need to find another future job.

And I was wrong,they were wrong,photography still excites me every time. And I guess last friday was the day that I feel like "I love this. This is what I should do." Last friday was the day of weekly meeting of KIAS. Just before that,I got a short meeting of the decoration people for Nevasca 2014 (which excites me so much !) I entered the room and sit next to my friends as always,they asked me "Hey,what happened to your face ?" "What is it ?" "You look red hahahah" "Oh that's because I'm bule hahahah"

But no,it's because of the excitement. It's because of the pop of excitement that constantly happened in my mind. My face even turns more red when I explain my idea for the next edition of the magazine,and for the next photo shoot. Even now,I can't wait to do the photo shoot and all the editing and stuff !

I've read about Parsons in a few articles and books,and they said that it is one of the best school to study art. I know that I don't even stand a chance there,but I'd be damned if I gave up without trying. So there I go,I search all over the internet for any information possible,I even use the custom brochure feature on their website and print it. I looked around for tuition fees,reading posts in forums about the university and so on and so on.

But what did happened when I gave the brochure to my parents ? They talked a lot of things about it but the point is............they talk to me as if I was joking about going into Parsons. They kinda talk in a way that say "you got no future with photography." My mom even said that "Really ? This is what you "love",eh ?" and at that moment I was crushed,it looked like I was exaggerating but I wasn't. Having your parents laughing at your dream was.....how to describe it;an excruciating pain.

They told me to go to law school instead,study something that really makes money. International business,international law,international economics. But those thing didn't fascinate me. They bore me to death,I took them at school because I thought it looked compromising. I know this sounds cheesy,and maybe even hypocrite,but I'd rather live on a budget from doing what I love,then stressed and depressed doing stuff I don't even like to get a luxurious lifestyle.


Gahhh I want to get into Parsons so bad,just so I can pursue my dream,just so I can prove them wrong. The stakes are high here,and I don't even know what I'm going to do next. Would you guys help me ?




Kelvin here,signing off.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Quote of The Day

"The truth is that everybody will eventually hurt you,you just gotta find the one worth suffering for."

-Anonymous

Friday, January 3, 2014

Bored

it's 2014 people ! I can't believe that I only wrote 5 post on December....it's pretty embarrassing to say that I admit myself as a blogger,yet I only wrote 5 posts per month :( oh well. I've been enjoying this 2 weeks long holiday by staying at home. Usually,I would complain to my parents or my sister like "WHY CAN'T WE GO TO SOMEWHERE NICE LIKE NORMAL FAMILY WOULD DO" but for now...I don't know. I think,all this hectic life of senior high school makes me wanna just stay at home and enjoying myself (this is getting ambiguous,you know what I mean.) I've been reading some amazingly good books I've never had a chance to read before. Like the Teen Vogue Handbook,it's soooooo recommended for people like me,and for people who seek career in the fashion industry. It does give us some good advice on how to get a path to a career in fashion,but it also gave us new perspective;that even though fashion sounds fun,it's not always about fun and games. It is full of hard work and determination. All those people,all those legends you've seen on the magazine actually work their way to where they are standing right now. It makes me rethink about what I want to do with my life...sigh.

But here's the good news : last night,my sister asked me if I wanted to be an intern with her friend who is a photographer !!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm psyched ! finally ! someone to teach me real photography ! I really can't wait for this intern ! I'll tell you more when it starts :)

So I guess that's pretty much my holiday. Sitting around,reading books,sleeping and eating and stuff. I spent my new year's eve at my best friend's house with my girlfriend. It was,surprisingly,an amazing night. We didn't do much except playing board games,but I guess the feeling of surrounded by friends and families is what makes it special.

Monday, December 9, 2013

Quote of The Day

"What if I'm used to the loneliness ? to being alone ? I think that's what scares me the most."

-My thoughts on a rainy day