Sunday, April 10, 2016

Stuck in The Same Old Lane

(Still not going to mention the fact that I have no longer wrote on a regular basis)

I can't believe it's the last week of my high school days. We still have prom night and graduation and maybe some administration stuff to look forward to, but my days studying wearing that grey and white uniform is almost over. The next 2 days is the last 2 days of my national exam. At this point I just hope that I don't disappoint my parents. The dream of having a perfect score is just too high :'D

So what's next for me ? That question still haunts me for days even to this second. Most of my friends had already got that figured out. There are a lot of options, from the best to the worst. But how do I choose if I don't even know what I want ?

I know that this whole "I'm trying to figure out what I want to be in life" topic is pretty boring for you, whoever read this post. It has been the main topic for a couple of my past posts. And I am a little bit bored too. I wish my boredom would give me answers. I'm not even 100% sure I know who I am, let alone what I wanna be in life.

But maybe, just maybe, this uncertainty is a good thing. I don't want to be limited by my own choices. But then is it a really good thing if I have a lot (or too many) options ?

I didn't expect being a teenager to be this stressful.

Well, tomorrow's exam is Physics and I suck at it. bad. Yet here I am snacking and binge-watching 2 Broke Girls and Stitchers.

May the blessings of God be with me, Amen.

Kelvin, signing off.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Oh Snap !

Bonsoir tout le monde !!!!

or at least it's night here when I wrote this.
It's funny how I still remember the password to my blog account since I've stopped blogging for about god knows how many months now. I have to say that it did cross my mind for a few times to update this site, and some of my friends (two, to be exact) asked whether I'm going to post something new or not. I guess it's safe to say that they liked my blog!!!!

or maybe they just need something to laugh at.
there's that possibility.

So today is June 1st and I literally don't have anything to write. I just finally have enough willpower to overcome my laziness and write something. I'm currently on my finals week right now. I feel calm....or at least I wanted to feel calm. Today's exam subject was BI and it was 22 pages of pure torture :') and my teacher used the same paragraph over and over and over again for like 10 questions. I think I had enough reading for the rest of my life.

Tomorrow is June 2nd (why am I starting my paragraphs with obvious facts ?) and it's a day off celebrating the power of Pancasila (it is the literal translation of the name of the holiday). You see, theoretically you should start your paragraph with the general idea of what that paragraph is going to say. But in my blog that's not the case and we can simply forget about that rule, or even any rule ! because that's how I write, anything that crosses my mind, I'll write it in that second.

See, the thing is sometimes I feel like my blog posts should be something educative and informative for people to like it. Or at least, entertaining. OR AT THE VERY LEAST, have correct sentences (grammatically) and punctuations. But then I rethink about why I started blogging then, I'm doing it for fun. I don't want to end up having to serve people through my posts, even though many said that if I planned the whole thing carefully, I might make some good money. I want to have fun, I want to escape my usually, habitual life and wrote things that I didn't have the courage to say. That's it. If people happen to like it, good. If people didn't like it.....well that's not good but I guess it's okay.

I also think that this whole I-forgot-why-am-I-doing-this-in-the-first-place thing also happens a lot in our life. What I can tell you from a student perspective is that I know a lot of people who are competing to get a super duper extra high quality with cherry on top grades. I know, I know, that's the spirit. But most of the times that spirit turns people into animals. I've seen my friends sabotaging each other's works etc etc, not remembering why are they studying in the first place. I'm not going to put the "holier than thou" thing here but for me, I like knowing something. I like knowing how something works. I like to know why something works. and in my ideal world where there's no social obligations to get married and have kids, and you don't have to have good grades and a diploma to get your life together, I would love to be a life-long learner. I believe there's more to the universe; even after everything we've known now.

There are some times where I considered applying for philosophy major.


Kelvin here, signing off.

P.S : Cara Delevingne I love you
P.P.S : that P.S above is an excellent example of my perfect incapability of systematic writing.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

Quote of The Day

"To live is to have problems, and to overcome those problems."

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Hicka Ticka

Ohhhh myyy gooooddd
School is just getting crazier than ever. The assignments,those papers,the pressure. But hey, it's 2015 and I don't want to be trapped in the same mindset as 2014. I'm gonna try to enjoy this whole ride because you will only be in high school once in a lifetime,right ?
Oh God forbid don't let me repeat that hell on earth

Anyways,it's true. It's not me exaggerating my (every) part of life. I just can't imagine how the 12th graders are feeling right now....
Oh shit I'm gonna be in the 12th grade next year
I still don't know which uni I wanna go toooooooooooooooo

By the way,do you know this site called Humans of New York ? I've been loving it for a long time now (saying this so that I don't look like I live in a cave being someone who actually just found this website) and I read a lot of inspiring stories. What I love about it is that it was mostly, if not always, only a paragraph long. How can you touch someone's heart with just a paragraph long ? I don't think I would be able to do that even with a novel. 

Or maybe it's just me who's too sensitive. I mean, in my stories that's mostly the case right ? 

Hey, this just came to my mind. Funny how I always have nothing to write about. Yet here I am typing a lot of words per minute. 
I don't even know who I'm talking to. 

I followed a lot of fashion houses on instagram and it was Men's Fashion Week a few days (or weeks) ago. I haven't had time to see all the collection but oh my god those photos on instagram makes my closet look like a dumpster (see ? Exaggeration) I did see the new Michael backpack from Louis Vuitton it made me shed a tear (another exaggeration) in a good way, and I always love anything from Hermès

It's Jour d'Hermès made by perfumer Jean Cloud Ellena. Have you ever imagined youself skipping Luna Lovegood-style in the middle of a flower garden during spring time ? Well, try to capture that on a scent and BOOM ! Jour d'Hermès. What I also like about it is that I think it suits my personality, or at least what I want my personality to be. A happy go lucky child :)

So I'm posting this from my phone and it's so annoying this blogger app don't have an autoscroll feature. Oh wow it must be a high tech thing to have your app to scroll down right google. And I also can't see how long my post actually look like on desktop version so...
Fingrecrossed it's long enough
And if you thought I was only babbling pointless stories on this post
I did. 

With so much love and equal hatred

Klaflìn Lachowski
(How ironic)

Sunday, January 11, 2015

2015 ?


I thought this was supposed to be a routine kind of thing -_-
oh well you know me and all my teenage hormones

2015....time flew so fast. I feel like I can't even imagine a year called 2015,don't know exactly why. I just thought that this is not supposed to be here right now. Time flew so fast,too fast that it is getting scary. Now I have to be honest with you, I don't have anything particular to write tonight. I just feel like I need to write something on my blog...thanks to kak Jasmine who encouraged me to start writing again by saying a few nice words about my writings hahaha.

Hmm, I guess I'll just write what I have been up to lately.
Time can change everything, the way we think about something, the way we feel about something, the way we respond to something, you get the idea. These past few months....I think my priorities and dreams have been shifted. Does this mean I'm not as focused and determined as I thought I was ? I don't know..I guess it's normal at this age but does this mean I keep making excuses ?????????

I think too much

My parents,especially my mom have always wanted be to be a doctor. I do want to be a doctor too, I mean, who wouldn't ? but getting into med school is hard, let alone "surviving" in it. Many people said that being a doctor is a life-long learner. It's a never ending journey because humans are such a complicated being. Beautiful, yet complicated. I myself find some excitement in finding out why our body work in such ways. It makes me remember how great and powerful Allah is. Also, being a doctor means you are an "extension" of God's hand. You are one of his ways of healing amazing is that.

I used to think like "omg being a doctor would be soooo cool" but now that I have read some articles about what being a doctor actually feels like, and also a few articles about doctor's ethic, I think I have a clearer image of what being a doctor actually is. I used to be drawn into the excitement of saying "yes, I'm a med school student" but now I feel like it would be such a pleasure and a huge honour to be able to heal people.

Does this mean I'm giving up my dreams of going to Parsons ?
I don't know..I don't think I can answer that right now. A big part of me still want that American dream. Moving to New York, doing what I love and paid for it. But the almost-as-big part of me also want to be a doctor..maybe stay in Indonesia for a few months before I move to New York ?

You might think "What's up with you and New York ?" I don't a child I've always wanted to visit America. New York, in particular. I love every piece of it, I could write another essay about why I love New York so I guess I'd better not write about it here hehe.

To be honest, being a doctor seems to be a more achievable dream than going to Parsons. but I thought if your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough, right ?

Friday, September 12, 2014


Work Work Work !!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, remember on 10th grade I said that the teachers always give tons of work to do daily ? well,it gets worst on the 11th grade. I fall asleep everyday from 3-5 pm. You thought I'd have extra energy to do all of those stuff at night do you ? no,I still sleep at 8-9 pm everyday. That's just how much energy I needed.

Or maybe I'm just that lazy.

Anyways, I've been enjoying the sophomore life ! It's great having juniors and being able to do more stuff in my organisation. I've been able to schedule more photoshoot and it has been done monthly now ~~ We even had the chance to shoot the basketball player of my school. Though they didn't make it to the so-called 'Fantastic Four' I know they've done their best. Congratulations and I hope you'll be able to make Bhumi Mitreka Satata prouder in the future :)

I also have been given the opportunity to work with the school magazine (which is,sadly,absent last year) at first I thought it would be fun but organising 30-40 people's mind into one work is not easy. but Bismillah, I hope everything went well.

Lately, everything in my life has been going through some 'revolutionary' time. Starting with myself, I think I'm starting to understand people better. I'm taking chances I've never taken before. I am also got lots of upgrade on my adapting skills,socially to be precise. I feel wiser, and I've accepted the fact that some people will not like me straight for who I am, they also need adjustments and adaptation, just like I did. And if they ended up not liking me, that's their problem :D

Now talking about the blog, I haven't posted any outfit posts since like forever. I think besides time,passion is also the problem. I mean, I should make time when I don't have any, but the fact that I didn't....does that mean I'm not who I am when I started this blog ?


I still love beautiful clothes,I still love beauty in general. Photographs, the photography itself, clothes, design and stuff like that. But I guess blogging is not the right way to channel it. I don't know yet what is, but I think I'll start with photography ?

so what happens to the blog ?

It stays right here ! I'm trying to do something constantly and so far this blog survived, so I think there's no reason to put it down. I think I'll turn my blog into journal where I can just write anything I want and thought about. I will use this blog as a media of sharing my experiences and my feelings about my surroundings. That's why I changed the title :D

So I hope you'll still enjoy reading my blog. I don't know whom I meant by "you" ,but I hope it's a real person out there
You could've been on any website right now but here you are on my blog.

Thank You.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Top Movies To Watch This Holiday !

I know it's a little bit late to post this, since most of you have only less than a week holiday. But I thought it will be fun to spend the last days of holiday cuddling with your loved ones in front of TV watching chick flicks all day long. It's Ramadhan so that means no popcorn, but it's still as fun!

1.Letters To Juliet

I am soooooo in love with Amanda Seyfried ! I mean...who doesn't ? She's practically one of those living barbies. And I love the way the story goes, two love stories in one movie. I cried every time the grandmother (I forgot her name) reads the letter, it's so beautiful :') what if...

2.The Proposal

I was watching some TV when a profile of Ryan Reynolds came up and they mentioned his super good acting in The Proposal. I went to the movie rentals and rent it right away. It was sooooooooo hilarious, I think that was one the loudest laugh I've ever got from a movie. I also love Sandra Bullock and her floating-on-the-sea Louis Vuittons :-)

3.Confession of A Shopaholic

Bag...Gucci ! This is my go to movie every time I need a mood booster. Go Isla Fisher ! I've also read the entire book series and it was awesome. Actually no, it was waaayyyy better than the movie ! Too bad they didn't make the sequel :-(

4.We're The Millers

This holiday is the first time I watched this movie, I thought it would pass my list of good movies, but it didn't ! It has drama yet they wrap it in such a comical way that it is enjoyable ! I cried (laughing) when I watched this movie. Especially that scene when it's Kenny's (is that his name ?) turn to play the guess game :-) Oops, explicit material here. Better watch the movie alone, no parents allowed !

P.S : sorry for the blurry image. I don't know why it is so hard to find a good one !

That's it ! wait what ? that's it ? only 4 ?

sadly yes, I guess I am pretty picky but it is what it is. Or maybe I just haven't rent that many movies yet... I don't know. But if you really want the fifth one, you can try and watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall. It's pretty good but it didn't make it to the list :p by the way this list contains movies from the drama-comedy genre only. Or as I would like to call it chick-flicks. If you love any other genre, Jinni and IMDB is a great place to look for recommendation !

I also downloaded this cool app called Discvr Movies. It basically do the same thing as Jinni and IMDB, but they have a cool user interface and it's on my cellphone ! So one point for easy access. I'm sure IMDB also have an app but Discvr Movies is worth the try. The only bad thing is that the developers haven't updated it yet for quite a while, so they don't have that great database of movies. But it still have thousands of old ones !

Besides movies, I am also addicted to youtube videos lately. Well, I've been addicted to youtube since a long time ago, but I've recently checked out those famous youtubers' channel and it is quite entertaining. You should check them out too. My favorites are AwesomeAlanna, Pointlessblog, and Marcus Butler.

Great Kelvin where have you been they've been there for ages and you have just found them "quite entertaining" ?

Anyways I hope you enjoy your holiday ! Where did you spend it ?